This is me

Well today i started my job at the Ups store. I only worked 3 hours today and the manager just showed me around the store and how things pretty much worked. So it was basically training. The rest of the week I work 6 hours. Being back in the workplace is a little unusual, but I guess it is because its a new job an dealing with the mail is no joke people. There is so much that I have to learn, so many type of transportation methods. Also we have to work with the United States Postal service for some services. It is really complicated and a lot of things that I have to do.

What is cool at my job(hehe) is that if the store is slow we can like go in the back and eat or w/e(Similar to the pool place but you can tell it is much cooler as i dont have to deal with the constant threat of chlorine enetering my bloodstream and hence killing me). Also if it is slow we can go on the compuer and surf the internet. So you guys might get a blog or dozen whlile im at work.

As with every job your interested at 1st and eager, but after a few weeks and you want to pull out your hair( which i dont have much of) then you know you want to kill someone.

I am on a diet. some days i do good, other days i fall off the wagon. It sucks when you are at home all the time, so all you do is look for something to eat and when you do find something it is far from healthy.

This is really hard. I am serious about losing weight, but when reality hits you and you realize you are hungry and that when you eat one slice of pizza it turns into 5 slices, then it becomes a problem.

Hopefully when I start my job on monday, it forces me to not to eat constantly. Sadly if it is anything like my last job, then ill be eating fast food everyday.

Another stop on my movie tour 07. HAIRSPRAY was Afrotastic( u have to see the movie to understand) but yea it was gooood!!

I got a message from the people at the UPS store and they said I got the job, I have to call them tomorrow for my details!

yay me

I came back from new york, I had a blast. Spent $$$ on clothes. I am trying a new style from now on. No more regular clothes. shirt pants.blah

I want to look fresh and hopefully get laid.

I am in Ny for a week vacation and I am enjoying it. I have to go shopping for some clothes and go to the city to see some of my friends from H.S. I cannot wait to see them.

Also realized I am one of the most insecure people ever. more on that in a similar post.

over the years I have noticed something. That a lot of my friends have change(regarding physcial appearance) in a postive way, except for me ofcourse.

People are losing weight, getting better looking things like that. When I look at myself I don’t see it. I look the same from childhood and in a way it sucks(for me). I never liked how I looked compared to people, I still dont.

 Sometime I feel that I am the only one having this problem, who knows? who cares? its not like anyone reads this anyways?

I started my diet yesterday(monday). I do not know if i can do this!!!

Starting monday I am embarking on a weight loss journey. I want to lose 30-40lbs.

I want to get a new fashion style. I am tired of being drab and fat!

I pray that i can do this as this will be hard as I love food.

 I just dont want to lose weight and look weird. I did not know Kyle when he was bigger, but looking at the pictures, he’s lost weight and he looks good know. I want people to see me and be like “omg u look so good” not “omg u look weird, u remind me of kelly price”

 That would be horrible.

Very soon i will be embarking on a life changing process. It will be tough but I think I can handle it.

I hope so.