This is me

You ever wonder if people ever find you attractive? Like I honestly do not know if people find me attractive or even liked me. Now we all know that there are people out there who are clearly hot and trust people make them know it, but what about the rest of us? idk. Noone has ever said I am good looking, it is sad. Whatever

I am in the planning stages of creating a forum type show on youtube for 2008. I have no idea how to begin, but I am really interested.

I start School on Thusday. Aiming for all A’s this time.

is my Guilty pleasure and I cannot wait for the premier on Monday.

I havent really been in a relationship. Truth be told I am terrified to get into one because I am afraid I would be a horrible boyfriend. With demands from my parents and stuff.

Most people my age could go to work or school and right after meet up with their bf/gf. With me it seems like I always have to watch my little sisters or something like that. Could I handle a relationship without ruinng it? I dont know.

I am just tired of being alone, I really want that companionship but if i do I am afraid that it wont last and that said person would end up hating me.

I absolulty love this song. Kind of makes me sad because it reminded me of my lonliness

 “Hey There Delilah”

Hey there Delilah
What’s it like in New York City?
I’m a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can’t shine as bright as you
I swear it’s true

Hey there Delilah
Don’t you worry about the distance
I’m right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it’s my disguise
I’m by your side

Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I’ll pay the bills with this guitar
We’ll have it good
We’ll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I’ve got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I’d write it all
Even more in love with me you’d fall
We’d have it all

Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they’ve got planes and trains and cars
I’d walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we’ll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you’re to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don’t you miss me
Two more years and you’ll be done with school
And I’ll be making history like I do
You’ll know it’s all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here’s to you
This ones for you

Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
Oh it’s what you do to me
What you do to me.