This is me

interesting as of yesterday. Usual ramblings of insecurities and self hatred.

Tell Friends

No disagreement

Do they think the same way?

Probably

What can you do?

I know I am late but I would like to wish my 2 readers a happy new year.

 This year started off with a bang so to say.

I came out to my friends at a party! a new years party! lol

and no i wasn’t drunk..maybe a lil tipsy but I was well aware of what I was going to do.

So yea I’m gay.

My friend asked me if I was sure because I had never done anything with the same sex…(little does she know) and how would i possibley know and that I couldnt be sure.

She then proceeds to tell me how she cannot see me with annyone..Not a Guy or  a Girl and I was hurt. Was not mad at her, but I am hurt because i believe her.

Can People be destined not to find love?

The fact that she can’t see me with anyone is striking a chord. I do commend her because she was being honest and i truly believe that my other friends believe that. See I hang out with my friends a lot and i never really told them my type( before they knew the truth) and I think that kind of made an imprint in their heads that I am just a great friend, that my personality could not mesh with anyone.

I am not what the stereotype thinks of gays. Truly am not.Overwight/ugly/ who knows what else.  Hence why my confidence is low to the ground.

I know my friends know this and hence why they may neglect to try to hook me up with anyone or w/e. It is sad that they are happy, with their relationships and crap..or sexual prowless..but hey what can u do right?

Well anyways peeps…sorry to depress u with this depressing blog…just how im feeling today.