This is me

I still feel like shit!

I hate this so much. Just this eerie feeling in the pit of my stomach that I cannot shake.

I think its just the lack of a relationship that is making me feel like crap.

i was fine for a while buti guess it resurfaced.

Everyone craves intimacy.

I think it is something that one needs in life or theyw ill be a stone cold shell.

i cried today..1st time in a while.

Over something that so important, yet so stupid.

Something that i always thought I never cared about reared its ugly head today and i care.

A switch that suprises me.

I hate it.

I try to stop crying and I can’t.

Everytime i try to stop..I cry harder.

Why am i crying all of a sudden? i thought i was void of emotion.

Guess when you bottle everything up, it leaks out at times.

today more than ever i feel trapped.

trapped in my being.

just want to ne honets, but somethings are harder than it seems.