This is me

I hate when you dont know what to do with your life…You aren’t sure of the direction you are supposed to take. Sitting at home doing nothing, accomplishes nothing obviously.

I wish I had the answers to my life.

I know this blog has been a bunch of sad crap lately…but noone really reads this..so all my really emotional posts go here.

Sue me

I want someone to talk to..like that

someone to look at…Like that

to share things with…Like that

to laugh with..Like that

to cry with…Like that

to hug…Like that

to Kiss…Like that

to Make love with…Like that

Like That may never happen, which is the greatest sin

I just dont know what to do…which seems like a weekly occurance with me.

I hate this…i need to be great in my life…..but i dont think my desire at the moment will get it there. I am constantly down and a lot of it is to do with school….I am not a bad student, however, math is kicking my ass to the point where I am sure I failed it…no time to withdraw

((sigh)) i just dont know. I have a weak mind…a lazy mind…and sometimes im in it to win it…and a lot of times im not…and that is the worst crime…..ahhhh i hate it…i dont know what to do…i keep disappointing myself and the people around me.

Will it ever change?