dont know what to do
I hate when you dont know what to do with your life…You aren’t sure of the direction you are supposed to take. Sitting at home doing nothing, accomplishes nothing obviously.
I wish I had the answers to my life.
I know this blog has been a bunch of sad crap lately…but noone really reads this..so all my really emotional posts go here.
Sue me
Like that
I want someone to talk to..like that
someone to look at…Like that
to share things with…Like that
to laugh with..Like that
to cry with…Like that
to hug…Like that
to Kiss…Like that
to Make love with…Like that
Like That may never happen, which is the greatest sin
ahhhh
I just dont know what to do…which seems like a weekly occurance with me.
I hate this…i need to be great in my life…..but i dont think my desire at the moment will get it there. I am constantly down and a lot of it is to do with school….I am not a bad student, however, math is kicking my ass to the point where I am sure I failed it…no time to withdraw
((sigh)) i just dont know. I have a weak mind…a lazy mind…and sometimes im in it to win it…and a lot of times im not…and that is the worst crime…..ahhhh i hate it…i dont know what to do…i keep disappointing myself and the people around me.
Will it ever change?
frustrating
it is so frustrating, that I am 21 years old and if i ant to have alittle fun my mother makes a big deal out of it.
It is like come teh fuck on….how long can u fucking want to shelter me from the world.
YOU are the reason I am the way I am. I finally want my wings to fly and you cannot handle it…and then it affects me!!
its really bullshit!
21….and this is how I am treated
negative feelings
I need to learn to push pass the negativity in my mind and think positive thoughts.
like what the secret says, but it is harder than expected
so sad w/friends
that my 2 close friends are on the outs.
I want to heal everything…but somethings are not in my control. I know that it will get better over time, but its so grrr
please please please
Please dont fail me now!!
I have to make this work.
Give me a way!
miss u
I miss my friend.
we havent spoken in like 2 weeks..over something so stupid.
I feel wronged too, he doesnt know that.
I apologized and he didnt think my apology was sincere.
Ah well I guess.
I just miss him that’s all.
crapola
I still feel like shit!
I hate this so much. Just this eerie feeling in the pit of my stomach that I cannot shake.
I think its just the lack of a relationship that is making me feel like crap.
i was fine for a while buti guess it resurfaced.
Everyone craves intimacy.
I think it is something that one needs in life or theyw ill be a stone cold shell.
cry
i cried today..1st time in a while.
Over something that so important, yet so stupid.
Something that i always thought I never cared about reared its ugly head today and i care.
A switch that suprises me.
I hate it.
I try to stop crying and I can’t.
Everytime i try to stop..I cry harder.
Why am i crying all of a sudden? i thought i was void of emotion.
Guess when you bottle everything up, it leaks out at times.
